My Life

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 04:38:09 GMT

Not too much goin on. Incase you read this and not my MYSPACE... just know that basically all I want for Christmas is for people to realize the TRUE meaning of Christams. When I say people... I am including myself.

Read my MYSPACE for more info. The link is- http://www.myspace.com/42852832

go to it

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 03:17:07 GMT

Idk... I don't know about anything anymore. I REALLY like him. That's all I know. I mean REALLY, and everyone is telling me to give it time. Time is an enemy. Time just makes things WORSE! I hate time. Evertime I see him, it makes my heart ache more, because I know we'll never be more.

That's all. Good nite.
JEss

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 04:21:34 GMT

WOW!!!! NYC was a blast!!!! This is going to be a long entry- but I'm going to tell you ALL about it!

Well, we left right after school Tuesday. Our plane was LATE, and then the car we had rented to pick us up from the airport broke down. SO no limo. :( oh well. Then we got to the hotel.. BEAUTIFUL.. and ordered room service! BEST CHEESECAKE EVER! Then bed. Then Wednesday we woke up and did some sidewalk shopping before heading into a couple of stores. That was tons of fun, and we ate at this place called the "University Resteruant", where I sat 2 tables away from Fabor from Trading Spaces! Then we went back to the hotel to get ready for the play. We were going to see Lion King on broadway. But before that we went to dinner. We had tried to get a reservation at Carmines, an Italian place, but it didn't work out, so we ended up going to Bubba Gumps seafood. I wasn't excited, but it was pretty good. Acutally, it rocked. We had this really cool (CUTE) waitor named Tommy, and he flirted the whole time. They played " Forset Gump" triva between tables, and that was fun. My aunt told Tommy it was my sweet 16 so he along with all the SINGE MALE WAITORS came and sang happy birthday to me, and make me get up and dance. Too bad there was no camera... NOT! Then he told me that for my 21st birthday he and were going to to go to Hawaii, because that's where he really wants to go. OMG it was FUN! All these hot waitors were dancing with me and all that kind of stuff! Then we went to the play. A-MA-ZING! That's all I have to say! Wow... then we went back and got ice cream at Ben And Jerrys. Yes, ice cream in NYC in November. Then Thursday we got up early and went to the Parade. It was great. We were right across the street from where the M&M Balloon crashed into the light pole and the bulb fell on those 2 women. But it was only minor injuries. That was good. SO then we went back to the hotel and got all dressed up for dinner. FANCY SMANCY! LET ME TELL YOU! Our view was overlooking NYC and the empire state building. That rocked. We all looked SO good!!! Then we got up early Friday morning to go to the Today show in hopes I'd get on T.V. with my sign, but I didn't. But hey, that's ok. Then we went back and got Grandmommie and Grandaddie, but we found out Grandaddie's brother died, and they had to leave Saturday. That day, anyhow, we did a little side street shopping, and I bought a few Christmas Presents, and then we went to the Sony wonder museum, the Metropolitan Museum of Art, and then walked through Central Park and then went back to the hotel to try to find Grandparents an earlier flight home. Then we went to a steak resteraunt for dinner because that's where Grandaddy wanted to eat. Then we all came back to the hotel and went to bed. Then we slept in until like 9:30 then went SHOPPING at MACY'S for me! FUN FUN FUN! I got LOTS of cool clothes. Then we met up with my Aunt cindi's friends for the Rockettes show, then went back to the hotel to drop bags, and then went to littly Italy for dinner. YUMMY YUMMY! Great Italian food! OH MY GOODNESS! BEST EVER! Then to the bakery for conolies, then hotel, packing, bed, and left this morning.

Flights were great on the way home. My mom's friend Bonnie was supposed to pick us up, but she got sick, so my friend from church, Jane, was bringing her son and his wife ( MANDY!!!!! One of my BESTEST friends) to the airport to go back to Nebraska. Their flight left at like 4:30, and ours got in at 2:30, and they had to be there at 2:30. But we thought they were leaving at 2:30, so I was bummed, because I didn't get to see her at all during Thanksgiving, BUT SHE WAS AT BAGGAGE CLAIM WITH JANE! The first thing she said when she walked in to check her bags was "I hope the lines are short enough that we can get checked in and go see Jessica before we have to go to the gate!" YES! She thought about me! Gosh, I love that girl! She rocks! I miss her so much. She needs to come back! So then mom, Jane, me, and Jane's son Derek, and his wife Jen all headed for home. But it took over 2 hours to get home from Charlotte. But that's ok, because I love everyone in that car so dearly that I didn't mind it one bit! Jen is actually really cool. I hadn't spent much time with her in the past, but she is actually a really coolio person. That rocks, because, while Mandy will ALWAYS be my fav.. jen is in Raliegh, and I can spend lots of time with her, since Mandy's in Nebraska, and I hardly EVER get to see her. When I need a really neato person to hang out with to just GET AWAY FROM IT ALL Jen will be there since Mandy can't be. But... I hope Mandy moves back here REALLY soon!!!!! Because NOBODY can take her place, even though Jen's up there!

So then I went to church, and saw all the coolio people there! Yes... Zach was there, and yes, I still like him. Like... A LOT! I mean... I really like him! I get discouraged though, because I know i'm too late. I know he used to like me, but I waited too long. I was so hung up on this Guy at Caswell, that Zach lost interest. Well, it's my loss. He's such a great guy, and I know he'd be good for me. But, like Kara said, "keep your chin up my dear.. your prince will come, i promise". So... if he's the one, then it will happen. I just hope I didn't screw up too big this time to fix it.

Well, I'm sleepy, so I'm off to bed.

Love ya'll!
ME

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 02:28:43 GMT

Wow... A LOT has been going on. I've been SO sick! And I have to have an MRI done at 6:30 in the morning. I'm getting REALLY nervous. I'm not nervous about the proceedure, just the resutls. I don't want anything bad to come out of it. But I'm REALLY nervous... but I've got the thought "the Lord is my shepherd. In whom shall I fear? In what shall I be afraid?" So... I'll be ok. Even if something is wrong, He'll take control and deal with it, and make it better.

Pray for me.

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 03:57:51 GMT

It's been a while. Let's see if I remember how to do this... oh yes... just talk like crazy... I can do this!!!

Well, I've been really sick for over a week. Not able to keep anything I eat down, and not being able to drink anything, and sleeping 18-20 hours a day. No fun at all!!!!

This weekend I've been staying with my grandparents b/c my mom, and aunt, and their friends Bonnie and Melody all went to Myrtle Beach Christmas shopping. I hope they're having a good time!!!

I got a happy call today! Miss Casey Crowley called me, and we talked for a long time! I hate her being away at college, b/c we never get to talk anymore. My Casey Dearest is gone... :(. But tonight she came back!!!! :) We talked for probably like an hour maybe... idk, when talking to her time just FLYS by!!!! :) She made my night. Honestly, when I looked at my phone and it said "casey cell" I was like "WHAT?!?!?!" At first I thought something was wrong, but then she said she just wanted to talk. It was a good time, good time.

Well, it's late and I have to get up early in the morning for church, so I'm out.
Night night ya'll!

Oh yes... and... boys are so confusing. I like this one... and omg... it's so hard! He used to like me, but not anymore. Who knows what's going through his head?

Love ya'll!

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 03:53:28 GMT

Wow.... what a weekend. It's been good and bad.

I got that dumb baby thing at school on Friday. It has kept me up ALL weekend!

I sang at the game on Friday night. it went well. I thought we did a good job!

Saturday I went to a carnival with Tiffany. It was ok. Sort of boring... but there was a really hott hott hott guy there so it was all good.

Then Sunday we had church. Tiff spent the night w/me and went to church. It was good. I sang in late service. I think I did a good job. Or at least an OK job.

Then monday I went to the movies with Tiffany and Justin. I had a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY good time. I do however, feel bad. Yes, I really do. I hurt one of my friends REAL bad. I don't want to do that.

Today I didn't go to school. I've been sick ALL weekend, and am just now getting a little better.

Well, gotta go. Dumb baby alert.

LOVE YOU!

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 21:21:37 GMT

Oh my stars... today was good, even choir. I talked to Hearn. It ended up that he is in a perdicament and he doesn't know what's gonna happen. Can't say anymore, b/c I don't know how many more people know, so I'm keepin it to myself for now. All I know is, I love Mr. Hearn, and its all good.

David wrote me this note today about how he is worried about me and he wants me to talk to him... NO! He is one of the ones that pissed me off. Does he not get that I'm mad at him, and don't want to talk to him? How hard is that to get? Huh?

Davie Game tonite with Mega-loo! Then Midnight Mission! Heck Freakin YESSSSSSSSS! I hope Jordan is there. He wasn't last week, and it saddened me very muchly. But hey, Megan is going this week, so if he's not there, oh well, my life WILL go on! And oh my... Kara and Casey might go. What fun that would be! OOO WWEEE I would LOVE that! Golly dang, I think that would rock my socks off!

Well, I gotta go do some stuff. I'll chat on with ya later!

Hit up the cellular!

Wow...

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 02:33:06 GMT

Today started out good. I had all of my Algebra 2 homework done, and I actually kind of understood it. So I was proud of myself. We had choir black and white pictures made today, so I was happy that I got to dress all up. And also Rose sat infront of me in English, and so that was exciting! But then came choir. Yes yes, it was a tear fest again. But hey, what can I say? I hate crying, but sometimes you just can't really help it.

I went in and had my picture taken first thing. I didn't say anything to Mr. Hearn, but I didn't think anything about it. Then after my picture I was sitting there, by myself, minding my own business, and he was like "Pruette, I would hate to put a wrench in your busy schedule, but you have music all over the floor in the practice room". So I was like, "Oh really?" and I went in there to pick it up. But he said it so rudely, that it made me cry. I hate it when people are rude to me, especially when I don't do anything to them. So I cried, but even when he saw I was upset, he didn't say ANYTHING! And that is NOT like him. Last year he would have been right in there asking me what was wrong and trying to help. He would have NEVER been the one CAUSING me to cry. And when he found out that I was crying, he didn't care. But then, Mr. Allred, our assistant choir director, came in and sat down next to me and was asking me what was wrong. He actually cared and he's only known me for like 2 months. Mr. Hearn, he's known me at least a year. That really hurts too. Because when he does this, it makes me feel like I've let him down, and I would rather be stoned to death than let ANYONE down. That is the WORST feeling ever. I HATE letting people down. It just makes me feel like I've failed. I care about Mr. Hearn SO much. He is like, so nice, and I feel so comfortable around him, other than now. I just feel incomplete when he's mad at me. I don't like this, not ONE BIT! I just hope it will all work out. I think I'm going to talk to him tomorrow at school. I just don't know for sure what I plan on saying. I can't be rude, because that will just make things worse. I don't know how it could get worse. I cry every day in that class. I hate that SO much.

Again, friends suck. Not all friends. Some of them are still cool, and ya'll know who u r, but some of ya'll, u also suck, b/c ur not there for me in these hard times. Church peeps- it's not ya'll. Ya'll rock. It's all people from school who "claim" to be my friends, but who really couldn't care less if they were paid to. Gosh... life is so confusing. Why go on? That's what I wonder A LOT of times!

Well, I'm going to bed. I'm tired of life, and sleep is the only thing that gets me away from it. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Just wanna say thanks to 5 people-

Kara- You are so supportive through all of this. I know you have problems on your own with my brother and all, but you still care about me. That's GREAT! I cherish our friendship SO much. I wish I could spend more time with you.

Casey- Thanks for the comment. Glad to know you're praying for me. You rock girl. Idk if I'm going to the BBQ festival... I'll find out and let you know!

Eudy- You are GREAT! You have helped me SO much these past couple of days. I love you girl!

Sierra- Same to you girl. Together, the 3 of us can KNOCK IT OUT!

Katie- Girl, I'm glad you understand and are willing to help. I love you tons girlie, and don't you ever forget it! You're in a million!

Sucky Sucky life.

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 02:53:36 GMT

"My world is closing in,On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken..I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken.Of the broken

When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again

I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the emptiness inside my head
I am falling.I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying.Lord I am flying

I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can’t see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I’ll leave it in Your hands"

Yeah, right now my life sucks big time. I'm failing Algebra 2, and we can't afford a tutor. Plus we just had to buy a $175 calculator. And I can't comprehend anything in English. And my choir teacher is beginning to seem like he doesn't care about me anymore. He and I used to be really close last year, and this year it just seems weird around him. And that hurts really bad. And one of my best friends seems really distant from me now. He never tells me anything, and when he does it's criticizing. He never has anything encouraging to say anymore. The guy that I really like seems to not care. My family is falling apart, and I just can't seem to hold on anymore. I hate this feeling, and I hate a certain person for not being here for me through all of this. He just up and left my life with no warning, and I cared SO much about him. He was my strength.

I just want to crawl in a hole and hide. The only friend I seem to have anymore is myself. Can I trust anyone anymore? Or will they al ljust break my heart as usual?

Why am I being put through all of this at 15? If I hafta go through all of this now, will it get better, or will it continue to get worse? If it gets worse, I don't think I can continue on. I think I'll just have to give up. I don't believe I'm strong enough. I used to be, but I just don't think I can go on. Why should I? What is even left for me? Or is there even anything left?

I just gotta figure all of this out. I hate feeling like this, but I think I just have to accept it that this is how it is.

Night.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 02:38:14 GMT

It's been a few days, or weeks, since I've written. Idk what to start with, so I'll just start.

In parenting I hafta take home this baby. Man, it's gonna be A LOT of HARD work. I hafta keep it 5 DAY! 5 DAYS I TELL YA! I'm gonna go INSANE! Oh well, if I don't do it, I fail. I got a little boy. Anybody have name ideas? I sure don't.

Kara, I know you must be SO hurt, and hunnie, I'm sorry. I know that you feel incomplete, but you are still you. Nothing about you has changed, other than the fact that you don't have a guy to define you now. Now, you're you. Not Brad's Girlfriend, but KARA- loving, funnie, nice, pretty, true, real, and god loving. That's you. That's how I would describe you. And I look up to you. SO much! I love you, and nothing will EVER change that.

I got a car this weekend! HECK YES PLEASE! Who is excited? Jessica is! OH YEA BUDDIE! It's not new, but hey, it drives, so HERE WE GO!

Well, I don't have much more to say, so I'm going to bed. I'm sleepy, and I hafta get up for school in the mornin.

Luv ya'll!
Cellular- HIT 'ER up!

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 00:49:46 GMT

This entry is dedicated to my dearest... Casey Renee Crowley....

C-cool as a cucumber
A-awesome
S-sweet
E-exciting
Y-young (lol... "y" is HARD)

I love Casey. She's a GGGGGRRRRREEEEEEEAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT Friend, and I'm sad that she's gone to college. I miss her like CRAZY much! She's cooler than the back of the TRIX box, and lemme tell ya sumthin... that rabbitt on the back there is pretty darn neato!

Casey rocks my socks off! She ranks on the top of my list!

I love you Casey dearest!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 23:57:44 GMT

Today... today has been boring. ALL county chorus Auditions were canelled for after school, which ment we had to do them in class, which sucked. I HATE singing infront of a bunch of people. It bites! Mr. Hearn and Mrs. Gilliard are AWESOME, and I usually am not nervous to sing infront of them, but ever since sophomore year, I have been! Idk... its CRAZY WEIRD!

Well... idk... lets see... Not too much has happened today. I went to dinner with mom and Lee-ann tonight to Tar Heel Q! yupperooziedoodles! (Jessakaneze)-Josh made that up!

I'm still cool about this whole Zach thing. no worries.

Well, Gilmore Girls is about to come on, and its new, so I gotta go. TTUL!

Cellular!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:32:15 GMT

Ok, so it's been requested that I start writing in my journal again... so here goes...

This past weekend went decent. Friday night I went to the movies with mom, Leanne, and Tiffany. We went to see "just like heaven". It was REALLY good! I loved it SOOOO much!

Saturday morning we had a yard sale. It was SO early, and SO boring! Holy Crap... guess what... I only made $5.50! Yeah, that's crap!!!
Saturday night we had a benefit at our church for the Oswell Family! We love them SO much, and their dad has cancer! This was a great thing for us to do! Plus, I got to see Zach. Emma was there too!! YAY!

Then Saturday night I went home with Jane Foster! That was tons of fun. We talked till LATE that night. But it was a much needed talk.

Then Sunday morning was the start of our early services! I'm on the Praise Team, and we sang! I think we did a really good job! I enjoyed it too! And... I sat next to Zach during the early service!!!! :)
Then, I gave him a note after the late service... well... actually Emma did. And after she gave it to him she told me that she told him " i tried to get jessica to ask you out, but she wouldn't " then she told me he was upset when she told him I wouldn't, so I was gonna do it Sunday afternoon, BUT there was no time!!!! Then I was gonna do it at church sunday night, but again, i couldn't get my nerves up!!!

Then Sunday afternoon we had Adam's surprise 16th birthday party! It was SO fun! OMG he got like SO much money, or at least he got A LOT of cards, and cards usually=money.

Then last night after youth Zach and I talked in the parking lot for a while. I was very happy. Then last night he got online, and I was gonna ask him out, but b4 I could, he told me he just wanted to be friends. That he wasn't ready for a girlfriend at 13. And ya know what... I totally respect that. I'm not going to get mad, b/c I still TOTALLY care about him!!!! All my friends are like "date around. make him jealous. Make him see what he missed" but ya know what... i still care SO much about him that I don't see myself with anyone else. I would wait for him forever. I still care about him, and I'm SO glad that it's not gonna be weird between us, and that we're still gonna be friends. That is enough to make life go on. Just to know that I have such a good friend like him. He's so special, and his relationship with God is SO inspiring. I am in awe of how great of a person he is. I can't even imagine how God could even give me a FRIEND this great!

Well, It's been a decent weekend, but its also been really stressful. not only the whole Zach thing, which now, isn't that stressful. But other things that have gone on. I wish they would all just leave, but with great friends like Emma, Katie, Kara, Marcie, Josh and Zach, I KNOW I'll be able to get through them.

I'm goin to bed now. kara... hope you enjoyed this, since it was your request. I love you girl!

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 02:00:22 GMT

I have some new news on Steven. He was asked to move his leg and foot, and did both. At least we know he's not paralized. He is still being kept under as much as possible by medication so that they can focus on his lungs. That's their biggest problem right now. But he's doing much better.

If you want to be on my list of contacts to find out more about Steven, e-mail me at messyjessie_502@hotmail.com or IM me at ShortyPie12114. I would love to hear from you.

Today was good.

God Bless.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 00:18:06 GMT

I've found more out about Steven. He is out of his coma, and in and out of conscience. He is on life support and may possibly have brain damage. And they're still not sure about whether or not he will live. Just please keep praying, as we all are doing. We hope things will work out for the best.

Call me if you need anymore info on this.

-Jessica

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:56:00 GMT

Forgot to say one thing....

GOD IS IN CONTROL... TOTALLY!

Pray for Steven.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:32:44 GMT

It's been a long time since I've written in here, I know. Lots of things have happened. But one thing that I want to speak of right now, is my friend, Steven. He was in a bad car wreck yesterday, and right now is in intensive care at Baptist Hospitol. He was in a coma, and now he is drifting in and out of conscience. We're not sure if he's expected to live or not. I can't fathem that a guy whose been to my house like a million times is lying in a hospitol bed in intensive care, doesn't know what the heck is going on around him, and we're not sure if he's going to live or not. My main concern dealing with him used to be, " do I look ok when I'm around him? " but now its, " Will I ever see him again? " His locker is right above mine at school, so we talk a lot during class change and break. To have to go to school tomorrow, and know that we won't be able to do that, it is really scary. Sometimes I think that we take too much for granite, and we fuss when we don't get exactly what we want. Steven DEFINATLY isn't getting what he wants. Even if he lives, he probably won't be able to do all the sports he used to do. He can't wrestle, or play football or baseball. He's got a mom, dad, brother, grandparents, lots of a friends, and a girlfriend. All of these people, and more are hurting from this. I know I am, and we aren't even as close as some people are to him. Please, pray for Steven. He isn't a bad guy. He never did anything to deserve this. He doesn't deserve it at all. He's only sweet to EVERYONE! He's never said a mean thing tword me. How come all the bad people get away with all this crap, and its always the good guys who come in last, and have to suffer? All of these questions and more, they're all hard to deal with. But one thing will get me through. Steven is a Christian. Steven has ALWAYS been a Christian, for as long as I know. And I am a Christian, so I know I'll see him again one day, even if he dies.

Please pray that Steven will make it through and will be able to come back to West, our school, and lead a normal life, as much as possible.

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 03:28:26 GMT

Ok... wow... months have passed by since I've written in this thing.

I have a new b/f. BEST FRIEND... not BOYFRIEND... Although... I might have one of those too...
It's Emma. My bestest new friend ever! I love her So vury much! YAY!

The guy... Murphy... yupp... finally met him... good and bad... idk which. But yeah... like him A LOT. He likes me... only a lil. so... idk... w/e happens happens.

Gone. Depressed cause guys r skumbags. Nite.

Duz makin out not mean anything 2 u?

Tue, 24 May 2005 01:53:29 GMT

Ok, you know how I have had all of these people backing me up? Well... I have lost A LOT of trust, and respect for them. Especially this one. I thought they would be behind me forever, but now, I am finding out that she isn't all I thought she was. It's sad, but true...

I gotta go rethink about 99.9% of my life. BYE...

Sun, 22 May 2005 01:58:55 GMT

Ok... long time and I haven't written. So ya know how I said that it was "meant to be" well no... see... he now dates one of my friends... Oh well... He's out there for me. The one I'm meant to be with, and I'll find him.

Tiffany is over! YAY! We're bein goofy.. no wait... I'M bein goofy... AS ALWAYS! YAY HA HA HA

I saw Tim today.. Good and bad... wasn't sure how I was gonna react, but I made it through... yes tears were shed, but I guess all in all.. I'm glad I saw him.

I also saw JOSEPH! But that was last night! He's changed! Hope he and I can talk some! He seems really cool! YAY

Ok, I'm happy now. Gonna go hang out with Tiffany! BYE

YAY

Wed, 11 May 2005 01:58:42 GMT

OK... So I think it may really be MEANT TO BE! I think at least its a possibility...

He brightens my day... he brings a smile to my face... I think about him ALL the time... He actually talks to me like a human being, not a piece of meat... He respects my limits and goals... He LIGHTS UP MY LIFE! I think about him ALL THE FREAKIN TIME... I think... I think... I KNOW IT'S LOVE!

<3... IN LOVE!

Tue, 10 May 2005 01:05:33 GMT

To anyone who tells you that relationships can't be mended, just say FORGET YOU, because I am Living Proof that they CAN be!

Marcie... Glad we had that talk. I think we're gonna be ok after all.

Darin... wow... 15 whole minutes without anything MEAN being said... its a record!

Wed, 04 May 2005 01:11:38 GMT

Lots of realizations lately.

~Not all people are what they're cracked up to be. BIG
~Not all of your relationships are good ones... THAT'S A BIGGY!
~Maybe God is showing me how to live for Him.

Marcie... Girl.. You're great. I can't believe I ever got jealous of Jenny. I know you're still always here for me. I don't know what I was thinking. you're WONDERFUL! And you've got a GREAT guy. Don't let him slip away.

Gotta get some sleep. If not, I'll die.

Nitey nite ya'll.

<3

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 02:55:27 GMT

Today:

School
*Biology Test
*English Paper/ Book
*Choir test
*Health test

Church
* Set up Port-A-Pit stuff
*E-mail
*reply from Melissa, and Rusty too I guess.

Dinner
*Tar Heel Q

Church
*Makin Slaw

Davie High
*Relay For Life

Now...
*Home
*Shower
*Clean room
*SLEEEEEEEEEP!

I'll Elaborate later when I can actually see straight for more than 4 minutes at a time.

:) Good Day :)

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 03:21:54 GMT

Today... today was a GOOD day! Biology was actually not deadly for once. English, we got to work on our papers. Oh yeah... God VS Zeus. I'm gonna write a GOOD paper! See, I know A LOT about God, and I am good at learning about Zeus. So my paper is gonna be the best of the ENTIRE class. Ok, so probably not... but I can wish, can't I?

Anyhow, then choir was AWESOME! I love choir. And then, gym was gym. I mean, there's not 2 much to say about gym. I did, however, come to a HUGE realization today. See, I have had the same set of friends my ENTIRE life. Well, almost. Since like 7th grade. ANYHOW, they have all gone down a different path than I have. They have decided to take the smarty path, while I want to take the musical path. I just don't feel part of that group anymore. It makes me feel like I should be hangin out with all the losers, the stupid people, b/c that's how I feel when I'm around them, STUPID!

Anyhow, then after school I helped out at the consession stand for baseball and track... let me just say.. HOTTIEZ! ANYHOW.. Eudy, gurl.. I luv ya! We have SO much fun together! It's like... YAY! LoL... singin at the top of our lungs... I'm freakin hoarse! I can't do the test tomorrow... how sad! LoL!

KT... DA! Get it? LoL! Gurl.. ur so funnie! LUV YA!

k... nite time.

Luv ya'll ALL... specially U! ;)U kno who u is! LoL! And if u don't... then ur just DUMB!